She came home and walked it and was surpised to see me standing there in the livingroom.  You  could tell she was happy to see me, but then she must have started thinking about our last conversation, and she tensed up.  She said that I looked cool, like a real prince, cause I was all dressed up.  :)  I handed her a dress to change into.  It was her favorite princess dress up dress.   She changed in the bathroom and I gave her a little bouquet of flowers when she came out.   She loved them.  She was all set.. she had the princess dress, the flowers,  everything that she needed for a fairytale ball.

I took her hand and walked to her room, where I opened to the door and she walked it, wide eyed.  She loved the lights and decorations and said everything was beautiful.  Here it goes..  I knelt down beside of her and said that I was sorry, sweetheart..  sorry that I hurt her.  Sorry that I made her cry.  She hugged my neck and apologized to me for getting mad.  Then she wanted to dance with me.  I picked her up and held her, slow dancing with her head on my shoulder.  She told me that I could go dance with Nadia if I wanted to , but that I had to dance with her too.  :D  I could handle that.  I then told her not to tell Nadia, but that she was the best dancer.   She giggled and covered her mouth lol.  She leaned in and whispered to me that I will always be here favorite person.  I looked her right in the eye and told her sincerely, that I was very much counting on that.   She didn’t know what I meant, but I am counting on that for the future.  I started to feel that weird burn in my eyes again like I did in the car, and she put her face right up against me, until her nose touched mine, and asked me if I was crying.   LOL Of course, I wasn’t..  uh..umm.   it was very sweet though.  I told her that it made me happy to here her say that.

It was a great night.  I really wanted to make up for hurting her like that.  Even though it was unintentional, I felt really bad about it.   She’s the last person in the world I would ever want to hurt.   I might spend time with someone else, but my heart is always with Claire.   When you imprint on someone, it is a connection to that one person forever.  And your life’s purpose is to take care of that person and to be there for them however they need you.  Whether it is as a friend, a protective big brother,  a lover, or a husband.  I will always be right there,  ready to be whatever she needs me to be.  I just want to make her happy for the rest of her life.   My little princess

Lately, I’ve been pondering my future–what I want to do with my life. And I have come to no definite conclusions. I have a good gig, being the assistant manager of the family store and all, but somehow, I just don’t feel satisfied. Is that what I want to do for the rest of my life? I mean, I will be set; I don’t ever have to worry about having a job unless something completely unexpected happens. But then there’s this restless feeling…the feeling that I would like to experience life outside of this small town. I’d maybe like to go to college, travel, backpack across the North Pacific. Hardly any of my friends have stayed behind since high school. They’ve all gone off to college and the only time I see them is on the occasional weekend and a few months out of the summer. In addition, am I going to find my soul-mate here? Jessica and I are back together and things are going great, but there are no guarantees in life. Besides, I don’t think she wants to stick around here forever.

But, I want to keep this store in the family. I am the only son. Hell, I’m the only child. My parents have no one to pass it to, other than me, save a few cousins on my dad’s side.

So, what do I do? I’ve talked to a few folks about it, Quil Ateara and Chief Swan, and they think I should stay. I haven’t really talked to Jess about it other than fleeting mentions here and there. I definitely want the security and freedom of having my own business, but I just can’t get it out of my head that there’s more to life than this…

1/3 cup Crisco
1/3 cup butter, softened
1/2 cup sugar
1/2 cup brown sugar, packed
1 egg
1 teaspoon vanilla
1/2 teaspoon baking soda
1/2 teaspoon salt
1.5 cups flour
1/2 a bag of semi-sweet chocolate chips

Cream the shortening, butter, and sugars. Mix in the egg and the vanilla. Add the salt and baking soda, mixing well. Throw in the flour, and stir until combined. Last, add the chocolate chips.

Bake at 375, for 11 minutes. Trust me, these are best a little underdone. Don’t let them get too brown, or they’ll be crispy. And that’ll suck.

Sam and Emily are back and I am so happy to have the other half of my family around. I have missed them and can’t wait to have some time to catch up with them both. It seemed so complete last night to finally have them there for the pack dinner at Clearwater’s house. I know there are a lot of decisions to be made by everyone but this decision for me is forcing me to choose between my family. Do I choose Sam or do I choose Jake and how do I know which one I should choose? To me, they are both great leaders who have the best for the pack and me in mind. This decisions is eating me up inside.

So, Jake and Sam are problem #1. Now, problem #2. The guys in the pack aren’t really big Matt fans. It all started with Matt loosing his temper with Paul over something stupid or maybe it was Paul and Matt at the baseball game – I don’t remember. Anyway, tempers flared and Matt got mad. His temper fires up so easily but it also disappears just as fast and then he’s done – no grudge, no hard feelings. Anyway, Paul and Embry decided to take some of their anger in what I think was a pretty harmless way. The put hot pink hair dye in Matt’s shampoo and eye drops in his water bottle. The hair was really funny… the sick part – not so much! He was furious and quickly figured out that I let them know where he was staying. I was able to keep my mouth shut but he pushed me just a little too far and I got angry. I made it outside and to the edge of the wood before I phased but it took everything I had. Seeing Emily this morning reminded me just how quickly things can get out of control. I can not hurt him – I will not hurt him and I don’t want anyone else to either but Matt needs to learn to keep his temper in check and I can’t back him up all the time when he runs his mouth either. Things are going to get interesting I’m afraid!

Yeah.

So here’s how it goes. Girl has best friend. Girl’s best friend’s boyfriend who happens to be a shapeshifting wolf imprints on her. Wolf and girl live happily ever.

Or so the story goes.

Actually, the story goes a little more along the lines of, “what the hell? How am I going to live out a normal adult married life with hordes of shapeshifters crowding around my kitchen table and a husband who hears voices in his head?”

Yeah.

The long and short of it is that Sam and I decided to take a month or so away from all this craziness. It was time. Time to adjust to living as a married couple. Time to fix up this little house. Time to think about what our future holds. But, you know? All that time we spent talking about babies and nurseries and names seems crazy right now.

Last night we went the Clearwater’s place, for a pack gathering. It seems like they’ve grown since Sam has been away. There’s another girl, and a new boy with an imprintee, and catch this…an eagle. And so not only are they all struggling with which Alpha to accept, but then there’s me struggling with the thought that maybe I don’t want to have kids that have no choice but to grow up in this crazy life.

I mean, maybe the Cullens will leave and my kids will never have to deal with this. It’s not like it hasn’t happened before. But what if they don’t? Or what if someday when I’m old and wrinkled, they come back? Do I have to see my grandkids tortured by a legend come to life?

But then there’s the pack. ‘Cause no matter what, I can’t escape from the fact that I love these crazy kids. I didn’t realize how much I’d missed them. How terrible would it be to have a passel of kids with a passel of huge uncles…and a couple of aunts…to protect and teach them the ways of their tribe?

I just don’t know anymore.

The pack had dinner at the Clearwaters tonight. It was nice, not everyone was there, but Sam and Emily were there. It was nice to see my childhood best friend. I haven’t seen him since graduation. His wife is great. She made some delicious food.

Anyway, back to what I was really coming here to talk about. I’ve been planning on moving out for sometime. All my student loans are paid off, I’ve got a decent amount of money in the bank and I have a new job in advertising in Seattle. Plus a great girlfriend.. imprintee? Girlfriend. Aurora is amazing. Sure she’s a few years older, but age is just a number. 

After dinner tonight I went back home and started preparing what I was going to say. Such a geek, I know. I went out and got her favorite flowers, stargazed lillies and a bottle of red wine. I was nervous, but so happy to see her. She looked beautiful, her hair was a little messy from sleeping all day. But she had candles lit all downstairs. It was romantic. I told her about the pack thing, then I kind of just… asked her.

SHE SAID YES! That she’d move in with me of course.

We start house slash apartment hunting soon. 

I feel like a giddy twelve year old school girl.

So anyways, one night Dae got a call from some douche who was clearly asking for trouble. If you know Dae, you know he doesn’t take crap from anybody, just like yours truly. He decided to get on a plane to New York City totake care of it and asked me to come with. No way in hell was I going to give up going to New York City! After flying back to the States, we headed to the guy’s hotel. He took care of him, alright. Ugh, I totally could have killed the guy, but Dae wouldn’t let me have any fun! So now I’m in New York City, where more of my adventures shall be continuing. It’s too easy to cause trouble in such a big city.

From,
Seth V-.-V

Recently Matt, Willow’s boyfriend from Seattle has come to visit us in La Push. Most of us got bad vibes from him right from the start, Paul especially. Paul, Quil, Riley, and I feel very protective of Willow now that she’s a part of our pack and we won’t allow anyone to treat her poorly, especially not that Matt clown. Sometimes he acts like a jerk and loses his temper around her which makes US lose OUR tempers and we all know what happens when we lose our tempers. 

So, anyway, Paul decided to channel his anger and instead of pummeling Matt he decided to pull a prank on him. Of course I joined in on the fun. We put pink hair dye in his shampoo and Paul spiked his water with eye-drops. Luckily, Willow was a sport and gave us Matt’s room number at the hotel and I was able to put my lock-picking skills to use and break in. So, now Matt’s got pink hair and a bad case of um… well… you can imagine. Unfortunately, Matt’s somewhat smarter than we thought and correctly assumed Willow had helped us with the prank. We didn’t mean for her to take the fall, but she’s a tough cookie. 

Yesterday was Paul’s birthday so Rachel decided to plan a surprise party for him down at First Beach. She had Willow send out the invitations, I was in charge of food of course, and she made a delicious home-made cake and decorated with balloons. Riley came and set up the bonfire, I bar-b-qued, and then people started showing up! Not everyone could make it, but Quil, Claire, Nessa, Jake, Jared, Leah, Kim and her friend, Nadia also came. It was Nadia’s birthday too coincidentally. 

Matt was still sick in his room so there wasn’t too much drama on that front but there was some drama with Quil and Kim’s friend, Nadia. It turns out that Nadia is the girl Quil danced with in PA! At first she was pissed and we didn’t know why. She mistakenly thought that Claire was Quil’s daughter and got mad that he’d been at the club. I guess that’s understandable. They seem to hit it off after she figured out the truth. Well, not the whole truth, but the part where Claire is not his daughter. 

But other than that, everybody had a good time. It was nice getting together. Riley gave Paul some wax for his board, I got him I Love You, Man on dvd, and I picked out a “Welcome to the OC, B!tch!” T-shirt that Leah gave him. 

Hmm… what else? Sue is back from her trip! We missed her lots. She’s going to be having dinner with Charlie tonight so Leah and I are probably going to try to hang out in Port Angeles and see a movie. Leah’s invited everybody to her house for dinner on Wednesday night to celebrate Sue being back from her trip. Then later, as things wound down Leah and I decided to give Rachel and Paul some, er privacy. We went for a walk in the woods and had a serious conversation about the future and the fact that we’re falling for one another. I’m glad she can open up to me and it’s nice to hear how she feels about me. 

Wow! I’m rambling. I better get going. Did I miss anything? Hope not.