Quil Ateara
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04:34:11 am on July 1, 2009 |
I thought all night patrolling about the pain in Claire’s voice on the phone that night in the car. Sam sent me home a little early from my shift, cause I guess I was depressing everyone else out there that could hear my thoughts. I just felt so bad. I went home and laid in the bed, but I had a hard time falling asleep. I finally decided to stop moping around and plan to do something to fix it. I went to work, and then came home and went to the beach. Then I left and went by my house and changed. (I dressed up and fixed my hair and eveything.) I went over to Claire’s house before she got home from dance. Her sister let me it, and I went to her room and got to work. I decorated tthe room with balloons everywhere, because she loves them, and then lights and streamers. I had music ready. All there was left to do was wait for her.
She came home and walked it and was surpised to see me standing there in the livingroom. You could tell she was happy to see me, but then she must have started thinking about our last conversation, and she tensed up. She said that I looked cool, like a real prince, cause I was all dressed up. :) I handed her a dress to change into. It was her favorite princess dress up dress. She changed in the bathroom and I gave her a little bouquet of flowers when she came out. She loved them. She was all set.. she had the princess dress, the flowers, everything that she needed for a fairytale ball.
I took her hand and walked to her room, where I opened to the door and she walked it, wide eyed. She loved the lights and decorations and said everything was beautiful. Here it goes.. I knelt down beside of her and said that I was sorry, sweetheart.. sorry that I hurt her. Sorry that I made her cry. She hugged my neck and apologized to me for getting mad. Then she wanted to dance with me. I picked her up and held her, slow dancing with her head on my shoulder. She told me that I could go dance with Nadia if I wanted to , but that I had to dance with her too. :D I could handle that. I then told her not to tell Nadia, but that she was the best dancer. She giggled and covered her mouth lol. She leaned in and whispered to me that I will always be here favorite person. I looked her right in the eye and told her sincerely, that I was very much counting on that. She didn’t know what I meant, but I am counting on that for the future. I started to feel that weird burn in my eyes again like I did in the car, and she put her face right up against me, until her nose touched mine, and asked me if I was crying. LOL Of course, I wasn’t.. uh..umm. it was very sweet though. I told her that it made me happy to here her say that.
It was a great night. I really wanted to make up for hurting her like that. Even though it was unintentional, I felt really bad about it. She’s the last person in the world I would ever want to hurt. I might spend time with someone else, but my heart is always with Claire. When you imprint on someone, it is a connection to that one person forever. And your life’s purpose is to take care of that person and to be there for them however they need you. Whether it is as a friend, a protective big brother, a lover, or a husband. I will always be right there, ready to be whatever she needs me to be. I just want to make her happy for the rest of her life. My little princess
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