mrmichaelnewton
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05:22:02 pm on June 12, 2009 |
And it came to me then that every plan
Is a tiny prayer to Father Time
–”What Sarah Said” by Death Cab for CutieLately, I’ve been pondering my future–what I want to do with my life. And I have come to no definite conclusions. I have a good gig, being the assistant manager of the family store and all, but somehow, I just don’t feel satisfied. Is that what I want to do for the rest of my life? I mean, I will be set; I don’t ever have to worry about having a job unless something completely unexpected happens. But then there’s this restless feeling…the feeling that I would like to experience life outside of this small town. I’d maybe like to go to college, travel, backpack across the North Pacific. Hardly any of my friends have stayed behind since high school. They’ve all gone off to college and the only time I see them is on the occasional weekend and a few months out of the summer. In addition, am I going to find my soul-mate here? Jessica and I are back together and things are going great, but there are no guarantees in life. Besides, I don’t think she wants to stick around here forever.
But, I want to keep this store in the family. I am the only son. Hell, I’m the only child. My parents have no one to pass it to, other than me, save a few cousins on my dad’s side.
So, what do I do? I’ve talked to a few folks about it, Quil Ateara and Chief Swan, and they think I should stay. I haven’t really talked to Jess about it other than fleeting mentions here and there. I definitely want the security and freedom of having my own business, but I just can’t get it out of my head that there’s more to life than this…
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